The End

Last night i just cldnt sleep...

now i feel like im living dead...

well i drunk coffee like 1hr before going on bed...

so physiologically i cldnt sleep as well but... i was thinking...

this is the end.. my last yr...

everything is gonna end in 10 more months... !!!

and felt so sad... sorta remembered how i felt before i had to leave japan... and i hated that...

and ya as it's my last yr in malaysia, im starting to feel this again...

but much worse...

so many things happened since i came to penang and basically my whole life has changed...

six years... thts a long time...

almost as long as the duration i studied in japan...

i love people i've met here in penang...

it's just can't believe everything i have right now are gonna disappear suddenly...

friends, teachers, schoo, music, basketball, the atmosphere...

everything...

i was thinking back, remembering what happened to me in past 6yrs

and kinda giving a farewell speech to myself for like 1hr...

i know the 1st term just started and u guys think im so weird im already thinking like this...

but it is really really really sad feeling....

seriously, i can cry right now.. and i can bet, i will cry when i hav to leave penang... or even when the school finishes...

im 19 soon and im taking like a 10 yol...

kinda embarrassing

but i've never moved places except moving frm japan to here...

i just really really really hate this...

oh my god... im so naive...

but its just my thing... i hate farewell the most... it's sucks to be getting old...

i know noone really is interested and sorry for making u guys bored...

it's just one of the few.. i shall say moodswing.... may b coz im too tired too...

ya i started my clarinet lesson with this guy called Fernando... speaks better english than santana... no offence sir... but its a fact... :P

it was first day so it was only easy thing i played... lol... like easy

but the thing was... i cannot play with the dynamics well and expressions and emotion

basically i clarinet playing is like a studpid robot with really really bad hunched posture

no quality...

lol it just shows my personality i guess...

just the out side but no quality...

no wonder i never improve anything...

im just not born to be an artistic person i guess

but still i enjoy playing now unlike the old times

so i think thts whats most important...

hope tht soon im gonna learn something more difficult than this...

i suck!