loneliness

sometimes i wonder... what's the point of blogging... tht's why i havn't been updating for a while... i mean... i dun even know who reads my blog... i use this as my diary kind of thing so it's okay but... this is a bloggins website right? meant to be public yet nobody reads my entry... apart from myself... lol... so what's the point???

all im saying is, if u visit this site by any chance... leave comments!!!! dun bother if u dun want to... but it'd be nice...

i was basically alone all afternoon today all the other guys went to play rugby game somewhere other side on the island... since i became a boarder, it is kinda rare for me to be alone all by myself...man... i kinda felt sad. walking the mall aimlessly alone, walking on the street alone, having a cup of coffee alone... feel like some part of me was missing and it was really depressing... what's up with me today huh?... it's not the first time im being alone, i usually am alone especially during holidays....

i felt extra sad when this song came on... "so long goodbye" by sum 41... the title of the song made me think that im not goona be in penang for long time soon... gonna miss friends, teachers, school, atmosphere... everything... and ... i was listening to that song over and over again just to make sure it is not so long good bye yet!!!...

am at balfoort's... checking out all the banned websites in school and boarding house... really pisses me off... the invitation and notification is sent to my email but i can't do anything with it... and also, it's very harder and takes ages to check out all the new updates of that week on facebook and blog and so on ... grrrg...

apparantly there is small japanese anime fever (not the hentai crap!!!) .... sadly no-one apart from me in my year is part of this... Y NOT!?. u guys think im too childrish to read thoes comics or what??? huh? well im not! it's just something u cannot simply quite when you read them since u were like 6 years old!