beginning of a new path

lavy just past away this afternoon... i was right next to him the moment he stopped breathing.

i don't know what he was thinking when he was dying... may be he was thankful to us for accepting him as a pet and welcomed to this family, rather than dying as a lost dog, or may be he was full of vengeance and regrets coz we weren't taking care of him properly

it is sad... tragic...

but i feel happy and thankful to him for choosing to die today.
it could be any other day but i really do believe that he choose to die today.

i've been away from home for 7 years and i was back here for holiday for 2 month every year in total.
then i finished uplands and came back here.
he died when i'm back home

i said im back home doesnt mean im always at home.
i've got a part time job to go and im not home during daytime.
but today, my dad and i agreed to take a break for doing other things like sorting uni stuff...
so i've been at home today...

i don't think it's just a coincidence and karma that lavy died today.
i think he was waiting for me and whole family to be with him together...
he hated to be alone the most in this family and it was probably his will to live until today when everyone is around.


rest in peace lavy..

it's gonna be a bit empty and quiet from today.



i'll go and cry out now.