爆死、自爆死、原爆死

okay.. originally i was gonna be a bit emo to write about my final schooling of my life...
but now... im just gonna express my anger and regret and all the feelings of "pissed off" here.... hey, this is also what the blog is for...

so i just had my jap oral... the final... generally my oral is piece of shit... like really really bad... but it was like...too bad... i did much worse than the practice run... much much worse... i could tell im doing so shit... but all the nervousness, and everything took me over and i just didn't know what i was saying... the structure, vocabulary, grammar... everything was so shit... failed it so bad.... i know it... i can sense it... could i have done better??? actually i don't know.. but my oral was SO BAD!!!!! what was it that you were saying katsu??? ur aim is to get above 40 points??? yeah right...

depressed.... yes i am but not super bad... the only thing that keeping me from going insane is that i got over with my oral and i don't have to worry about it...

DIE

beginning of the end

i wrote this last night but i was too late to post it.... bloody school internet and midnight surf control!!!

my final chapter of schooling in uplands has just begun.... i have said this enough but i shall repeat it again... it just makes me sad... anyway, i had a awesome day to begin my finale... well i overslept and i was late for school!!! lol

so this is what happened...
i set my alarm at 6:45 last night. then i slept.... alarm went off at 6:45 this morning of course.... i kinda woke up to stop the alarm. but i told myself to wake up in 15 coz... 6:45 is when shaam wakes up first for shower and everything. then i usually wake up at after than around 7:00 to 7:05-ish. but this morning, my second alarm a.k.a ahmad shaamil azhari was not here.... so it didnt work... i woke up later thinking it's 7:00 in the morning... and looked at my clock. it was 7:58... i wasnt fully awaken yet and so i was confused with the time... the hour clock was ticking at 7 which was the time i was gonna wake up and minute hand was ticking 58 which was close enough to 00 so i thought the time was something 58 minutes and it was close to 7 o'clock basically i thot it was still 6:58. took me a while to actually realising the clock was telling me it was nearly 8 lol.. but even after realising it, i thought the clock must be wrong so i had a nice and big yawn and had a stretch on my bed... opened my curtain... and it was really bright for 6:58... it was too bright. went to bathroom and i didnt need to turn on the light... it was that bright... it was when i finally realised that the school bell is gonna ring in less than 2 minutes... lol...
well i shoud be hastily getting ready and just leave boarding house asap. but i didnt since i have double TOK; now it is known as monday morning double free... and fact that i was late anyway and no matter what im gonna be marked as late, i just took my time and had a nice warm shower and everything and i left boarding at 8:40 then went to 7/11 on the way to buy a coffee then i arrived school at 9:00...

great start isnt it??? already marked late on first day of the term lol...

now my second alarm is back from KL...
i shoud be arriving to school before 8:00 without any problem....

good night guys...
darn.. i didnt do any revision today!!! well my excuse is, i had to catch up on my downloading and youtubing since internet wasnt working in boarding last night and had to be done today :p also, i did bits of revisions in school during class time and break time just asking around people how much they have been revising and quizing together so that'll do it... :p

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i know i said im gonna post longer entry yesterday... but i couldnt coz i was invited to dinner by mc.devitt family with miss L. .. so yes i met tom and alex.. i guess last time i saw them was like nearly 2 years ago when i had to return him psp charger... they haven't changed a bit... i guess only difference was the number of times that they used manglish vocabs... became less obviously... and their english accent became heavier than what it used to be i think...

i thot it's only gonna be us... but there were coua few others invited... shaf and aaron. and a singer which i have never met before.... dinner was good as usual. well every time i went there (which was quite often) food was never crap unlike our school... my pyschic power told me that the dinenr was gonna be pasta from the moment i was invited by them... well guess what the dinner was, it was spaghetti ... im good huh???

after dinner, we were basically hanging around in tom's room... began with just randomly chatting... mostly about IB and A-level chem i dunno why... this may sound like we are nerds.... but we are not... and when rash came online, we were talking with her for about an hour.. using the phone call function on msn.. it was cool.. aaron and rash had a long jew talk lol.... while tom was solving rubik's cube... with the guide on a website "how to break rubik's cube"... took him like 40 min or so but when it was done it was kinda amazing... coz can never solve that thing... i can do one side :p

and i was facebooking for a while... after a long long time... since when i went to KL for incubus conecert. tom had a exact same laptop as mine even the colour... man i thot i was using my own lappie for a while... until i noticed a cleanness of the laptop... i gotta clean mine...

now im at balfoorts house (again) coz my grand parents went to hat yai.... and i was trying to revise together with other guys... kinda hard to... coz i was doing bio past paper which none of them took and bernie was doing math and darius was doing chem... yeah u can guess what happened... "hey dude, how do u do this?" and so on....

so i managed to do one paper 1 and half of paper 2... and went to net city... hahahahaha.... great revision session indeed...

i really need to begin revising for psych... but i have no motivation to do so... this is bad...

back in school soon... my final week of schooling in my life... time always progresses....

anyways good to see you tom. and dun complain that i never reply u on msn coz u never reply me when i reply... lol...

is this long enough?

after 2 weeks.... internet.. i love u!!!!

2 WEEKS!!!

no internet for 2 weeks... i didnt know my grandad canceled the internet... until i got home... i was thinking.... dial up was bad enough... but slow internet is better than non at all!!!!! man... it really really REALLY sucked... now i have to check millions of emails and updates for facebook and so on....

im an internet addict all right? (not very serious since i could manage to live no internet for 2 weeks :P)...

now im at coffee bean... gonna write longer entry later when i have time... and place where internet is accessible... busy checking emails at the moment lol

cyaz

IM SICK!

i've got flu... getting sicker day by day... i haven't been sick for long time... may be last time was when i had to admit to hospital in medan... and that was like 2 years ago...

started with bad sore throat... tht was gone next day but i started having alternation of runny nose and blocked nose... a bit of dizziness and now coughing... man.. sucks getting sick... i just dun like it...

well one bright side is that... i might not have to swim fly for swimming gala IF I DUN GET REOVER FAST ENOUGH :P... go house captain!!!

i was just at parents teacher consultation evening... my final duty... well i didnt have to go but yeah i kindly agreed to go... it was meant to be practice for year.12s, next prefects... but we didnt have such thing! we just did it last year... and yeah what to practice anyway? all u have to do is serve drinks for teachers and guide partents... after that was pretty fun... the gossips.. lol im not suppose to talk about it.. so ZIP!

gnite guys...